I can't turn back now, so I'll keep looking up...

So, all the blogs that I read have some form of year end wrap up.  A saying of good byes to 2010.  So I decided to try to write a wrap up of my own.  I certainly had a lot to wrap up.  Last year was one of the best years of my life, so many wonderful things happened to me, and I grew so much.  I managed to move out on my own, make new friends and reconnect with old, fall in love, and try so many new things that I'd always been curious about.  I have never felt so loved in my life as I have over the past year.  I have never felt as mature and independent as I did over the past year.  And even when I was uncertain and it was hard (and there was a lot of uncertainty and hard parts) it was still the strongest I'd ever felt and some of the happiest times I've ever had.

But then I realized that that was last year.  I had started out last year with the desire to live entirely in the moment.  To move forward only.  I think I managed to accomplish that...with a few hiccups here and there, but I managed it.  So while the past year was wonderful, I can't live in the past.  So instead of a post to say good bye to 2010, I decided to write a post to say hello to 2011.

So here we go 2011, you've got a lot to live up to, 2010 treated me really well.  Even when it was hard, I felt good.  Even my lowest mood in 2010 still beat the highs I'd felt before.  I'm looking to you to give me opportunities to be strong, and be happy, and be whole.  Because unlike in the past, I'm ready to take those opportunities and run with them.  Where once I was shy and timid, now I am strong and bold.  Well...I will take the opportunity to TRY to be bold.  (I mean, let's face it, this is me we're talking about.) 

I'm finally learning what it means to have dreams, to want things because I want them and not because it's what the people around me want.  To make decisions that benefit Team Nikki.  I'm anticipating a lot more hard times to come from this decision, since I've never really cheered for Team Nikki before (their cheers were complicated and I hate gymnastics) but I'm looking forward to the chance to try, 2011.  Please don't let me down.  I've learned so much about myself over the past year that I don't know what you could bring me that 2010 didn't, but I'm excited to find out.

So bring on your tears and your joy.  I'm ready 2011, hit me with it.